26 weeks

my camera lens is so scratched up but
here is the stroller we picked out :)
its brown and blue and green
not grey lol 

Well today makes 26 weeks. As each week passes i feel a little less nervous and a little more excited. The survival rate of a fetus born at 26 weeks is 80% or better. Of course there are always exceptions to statistics, but the further along i get the better i feel about our little Owen being born. His wake and sleep patterns are pretty noticeable now. He always wants to squirm around at bed time especially. He gets the hiccups on occasion and that's always funny. i still occasionally wake up flat on my back which i don't like, but i just roll to the side and go back to sleep.

We still havent bought Owens baby bed yet nor have i ordered the fabrics to make the bedding. I'm really excited and anxious to get all that stuff but realistically he cant sleep in it right away anyway. this website has pretty awesome fabrics for a less babyish feel in the nursery http://premierprintsfabric.com/collection.shtml i'm planning to order the fabrics i need from here unless of course i find it cheaper elsewhere. The crib i'm imagining is a cross between two different pinterest designs i've come across. The modern bedding here http://pinterest.com/pin/156289049538323292/ minus the ruffles, and the woven bottom part here http://projectnursery.com/projects/prices-bright-and-modern-circus-nursery/ if you click through the pics on either of these links there are some pretty cute nursery ideas for boys or girls rooms.

i just cant wait to meet him. To hold him and decide who he looks like. I hope breastfeeding works better for me this time around. It was a total chore with abigale and i didnt do it as long as i would have liked to. Luckily then we qualified for WIC so i didnt have to pay for her formula. This time that isnt the case and formula runs about 15 dollars a can and lasts no time at all.

Jesse has been such awesome support lately. He always tells me i'm beautiful and makes me feel so special. Sometimes its hard to feel attractive with the growing stretching belly and hormones but he has done an amazing job of continually making me feel good. He doesnt complain when i make him hold everything at the store so i can go pee every five minutes, he deals with all the changes and ups and downs like a champ and i am so greatful and lucky to have his constant love and support.

25 weeks

         so today i'm 25 or maybe 26 weeks pregnant. Doctor says 25 sonographer says 26 so i guess Owen will decide for himself! i started out weighing 125 pounds. due to morning sickness i lost down to 121 pounds, and i now weigh 126 pounds. That counts as 5 pounds gained. most people who experience morning sickness loose weight as a result and its perfectly ok. Dr Zapata wasnt terribly concerned that ive only gained 5 pounds however she did say that i need to gain 1 pound each week from now until birth (15 pounds total). i love having a female doctor. she is the greatest. a male doctor can train and study his whole life but he will never be able to fully understand what it is like to have a baby. its just impossible. Anyway, i feel pretty good most of the time and i'm always hungry.
        I guess my main worry in this whole new adventure is Abigale. She has been the center of attention for 6 years. She hasnt had to share her stuff or our attention. She is very much excited to be having a brother, and she talks to him all the time. I just dont want her to feel left out. Newborns are demanding. Some can be VERY demanding and i dont want her to feel left out or less important. Ive done my best to prepare her for what is to come. She knows he will cry alot and need to be held and fed and changed constantly, but i dont know if she really understands that some of that time that would be given to her will now have to be given to her brother. She will be a great helper. i plan to let her help as much as she would like to and include her so she feels important. It does worry me though, i dont want her to ever think i love her any less. She's my big girl.
      i guess thats all for now, i am trying to do this more often....