Owen :)

Yayyyy its a boy!! Owen will be the first grandson on both sides of our family. He will be one spoiled little boy. here are some pics

three months down

well i havent blogged in a while, my life has become even more busy than it was. Im officially three months and 4 days along in this pregnancy journey. This week i decided to change doctors. I was seeing Dr. Kowalczyk. She's a great Dr. and a very nice lady. I choose her because she came and spent time with me in the room after abigale was born. She helped me with feeding. She was very kind and gentle and understanding. She's a mother and she's very down to earth. I've had one visit and one sonogram at her office. The ladies who do the scheduling are really the reason i changed. im sure theyre nice too, but they cancelled my appoinment and rescheduled 5 times. I was supposed to be seen tuesday and they called and cancelled ten minutes before my appointment time saying they made an error. They didnt want to reschedule me until mid January and i didn't want to wait that long.

Dr. Zapata delivered abigale. She is very upbeat and energetic. She loves to talk. She is like me in alot of ways.  She also is a nice lady and a great Dr. She will be seeing me for the remainder of my pregnancy. i called Tuesday, and had an appointment Thursday and they didn't cancel. I didn't choose Dr. Zapata from the beginning because i really enjoyed my experience with Dr. K i liked how calm and soothing she was. She has a very natural approach to birthing and parenting and i like it alot. Dr. Zapata will be fine too, but it will be different. I can remember her waltzing into the labor room and almost yelling "ok mom lets do this!" usually thats completely my style of doing things, babies are different.

I hope this child is a boy, and for some reason i think it is. Maybe its because i know that's what we all really want, or maybe its because it really is a boy. i thought abigale was a girl before i knew she was a girl. I got to hear the heart beat yesterday for the first time. it made me very happy. My morning sickness has been pretty intense and i haven't been feeling good. Hearing that for just a few moments made it all better. its all worth it in the end. I cant wait to see his or her little face and fingers and toes.

If this baby is a girl. We will wait a year or so and try again. The plan is to save money during that time so we can use a midwife. Midwives actually cost less than going the traditional route but my insurance doesn't cover it up front so it will cost about $3,000 up front. Traditional OB hospital births cost upwards of 10,000 to 25,000 depending on the amount and different kinds of medicine the mother chooses and doctors feel necessary.

i would love to have a natural home birth but this time it just wasnt feasible. For some people that sounds scary but believe me, ive done plenty of research and have talked to many people about it over the course of several years. If i chose a medical profession, i would want to be a licensed midwife. Their jobs are amazing.

Ricki Lake made a documentary about home births and it's pretty amazing i think. Of course, it is biased but what isnt. Here is the trailer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8h0SkPcs2U its on netflix. If you consider having a child you might give it a watch so you can form your own opinion.

bump update

So i had my first sonogram and everything went great. Abigale came along and she seemed to enjoy being included. She said it was cool. They kept my due date the same, June 27 and said the baby looks just as it is supposed to at this stage. its amazing how something so small at this point can cause so many changes. The surge of hormones is hardest for me. ha ha i'm sensitive anyway but oh boy watch out now! lol, also the morning sickness has kicked in with a vengeance. i love food and i love to eat but now i choose my food on which would be most pleasant to throw up. yuck. Here are some pictures. i know everyone seems to be having babies no so i wont carry on, just thought i would update in case you're wondering.

spawn update

I had an appointment with the baby havin doctor today. The nugget is so far so good. I am 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. my due date is june 27th. They gave me some prenatal vitamins, scheduled my blood work, and my first sonogram. Sono will be november 17th. i am so excited. no heart beat yet, but it should start beating by the end of the week. i also cant wait to hear that. :) i'm tired and my boobs hurt but other than that im doing very well. no vomiting so far yaaaayyy my blood pressure was high, but the didnt prescribe anything yet, Frankie said she wanted to wait until we did the blood work. Lets all hope it goes down, im not a fan of blood meds.

bundles of joy :)

baby at 4 weeks (embryo)

so i posted that i was gonna eat right and work out and be hard core healthy and lose weight.... well i take that back. i do still plan to eat healthy, and avoid caffeine, but now for a different reason. Jesse and I are having another baby!! i wasnt terribly surprised this time to find that i was pregnant. We weren't really "trying" as i see it. We just stopped using protection and man it didnt take long after that lol!! My first preggo appointment is October 27th at 9:30 and i cant wait :) This time around i'm more educated, and not nearly as nervous. i think i will enjoy it more. Maybe i wont have such bad morning sickness this time. I hope its a boy, im so excited. jesse is so excited. yay for babies. i feel very blessed to have all the support of my friends and family. All of the congratulations and well wishes have been wonderful. Abigale is excited too. She says she is a little nervous but she wants to be mommy's helper. She said she doesnt want to change poopy diapers tho because that stinks. Gotta love the mind of a five year old.

nom noms and boo's

i was at school yesterday diligently working on my database project (nothing like waiting til the last minute) i figured most of it out. only one technical difficulty. i hurried out of the classroom to answer my phone, jesse was calling. As a result of my rushing, i completely forgot to unplug my external hard drive and put it in my backpack. of course i didnt notice until later when i was getting ready for work. i called the school and begged them to look for it :( it wasnt there anymore. it has everything. my music, movies, data files for class that i MUST have. Even the christmas pictures emily took for us. Luckily, i have the pictures saved on my computer and another flash drive, but everything else is gone. My professor teaches several other classes so she promised to keep an eye out for it. im sad now :(
            i made myself two eggs over medium for breakfast. i also had a very ripe banana and a glass of apple juice. lunch probably wont happen. maybe some grapes or part of my dinner. dinner is italian herb baked pork chops (boneless sirloin) and fresh green beans. no pics yet.
            i worked out like a beast Sunday, and rode my bike to school yesterday and today. the wind today was crazy. i had to ride against the wind all the way there, but the return trip was nice. No yoga today.

food and yoga

Lately ive been terrible to my body. i have eaten more fast food that anything. very little vegetables, even less fruit. mostly fried meat and bread or potatoes, or both. ive been slacking on yoga. I think ive done it twice in the past two weeks. thursday october 6 is when the bad eating started so it hasnt been that long and already i feel horrible. im never hungry feeling but i eat anyway, i have no energy. ive gained about 5 pounds. ive allowed myself to do this as sort of an experiment. i realized how bad i was eating and continued, but today is the last day of that. luckily at home we dont but much junk food anyway, and i never buy soda. i hate diet plans, they never work. like how the hell am i supposed to not eat bread.... i love bread. if i had medical reasons not to eat bread then i wouldnt but otherwise gimme my bread!!
                      Starting tomorrow im going to be good to myself again. here is the goal. no fast food... if we do go to a fast food place as a family i will eat something, but i will try to keep it light and compensate for it in later meals that day. i am going to try to portion my meals so that i eat less meat and a bigger portion of vegetables. i will try to include more raw vegetables. they are loaded with micro nutrients that you lose when cooking. Micro nutrients are great for your cells, they clean them and keep them healthy giving us more energy, healthier looking skin, less headaches, and better sleep.
                       im also going to get back into my yoga practice. id like to do it every morning, but its hard with school so my goal is every other day. im also going to try to work out with jesse more on the weekends.
                       lastly, i watched a documentary on netflix called Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead. its about an australian dude that does a juice fast for 60 days. he looses tons of weight and increases every good health factor by alot. im not saying i want to do a juice fast, but id like to do more research and maybe buy a juicer. It makes sense, turn raw vegetables(micro nutrients) into a drink! they condense down alot so its much easier than trying to eat your full serving of vegetables each day. the down side that ive already noticed is the cost. good juicers are expensive, and the documentary stated that a juice fast costs about 15 dollars a day and an organic juice fast costs over 28 dollars a day.
                        i will take pictures of my food and maybe some yoga poses. ill post my weight each week, and we will see what happens. i miss waking up feeling hungry, and without a headache. :)